So focused

So i officially withdrew my youngest from kindergarten. She will be home with me for the rest of the year. i am also on the verge of withdrawing my older daughter from 3rd grade and focusing solely on reading and languge arts and writing. She is not up to grade level in those areas. I dont feel like it would be the responsible thing to do at this point to send her to 4th grade perfoming at the rate she is. and there is too much owrk to be done to do it over the summer. Allthough I think we may read our summer away.I went to a school rummage sale today and found almost a complete set of baby Sitters Club books I bought them all for my daughters. I loved them as a kid and i think if I start to read hem outloud to my 3rd grader that eventually she will be led to try to read them on her own. I am almost sure that after next week and the week after that is spring break, she wont be returning after the break.
I feel like next year I need to devote to my kids. I think I will return for one more semester in the fall and then take a semester off to focus soley on the kids and thier progress. ruth be told... after next year both boys could test into uni high. both as sub-freshman... who wonderful would that be. what would we have to do with their minds in that amount of time. how much time would it take. It cant be a matter of 'are the smart enough" I know they are but How much time would it take to crack the shell deep enought o tap into that kind of wisdom. How maany prayer would it take????? What is too hard for God.

I feel like god is speaking to me. As a mother I feel a supernatual connections in regards to my children or my husband for that matter.